Because of Black Birders Weekk

I go birding almost every day, but when the news broke about Christian Cooper, and img_2472George Floyd, and all the protests that followed, I couldn’t bring myself to go. I was glued to my computer instead, reading articles, and trying to figure out how best to channel my anger and sadness into action.

One of the calls to action I heard over and over again was the call to listen – and I was able to heed that call immediately, and in a way that deeply resonated with me, through a series of online events in early June, called Black Birders Week.

Black Birders Week was created in direct response to an incident that occured in Central Park on May 25th, where Christian Cooper, a Black birder, had a tense encounter with a white woman. She was walking her dog offleash in an area of the park where it is prohibited to do so. When Cooper asked the woman to leash her dog, she became defensive, and told him she was going to “call the cops and tell them that an African American man is threatening my life.” And then she did just that, while Cooper filmed the whole thing. It’s disturbing to watch they way she feigns fear and hysteria, and nearly strangles her dog in the process. She knew what her phone call – and what her lies – could mean for him. It was vengeful, and, in Cooper’s words “unmistakabley racists.”

One of the organizers of the event, Corina Newsome, in a recent interview, said that what happened to Cooper was a good example of how “white supremacy, weaponization of police brutality, and black people just trying to enjoy the outdoors…” too often intersect. And that a group she is a part of, called #BlackAFinSTEM decided they had to do something in response. 

Six days later,they kicked off Black Birders Week with this announcement by Newsome:

Throughout the week, I learned about what it is like to bird while Black. The participants in the video sessions shared details of their experiences where they felt vulnerable or targeted while birding. There were accounts of being followed, or questioned simply about their presence oudoors. They talked about how they have to be conscious about what they wear, how they act, and even of how “suspicious” their gear might look. As a white birder, I have never had to think about these things.

There were discussions of how little representation there is of Black nature enthusiasts in the media and in advertising. And there was talk of how much more that birding organizations could do to make birding more inclusive and welcoming.

I felt especially grateful for the candor and generosity of the participants when it came to discussing white allyship. I know it can be frustrating to be asked to explain this to white people. 

There was levity too, and a sense of celebration. There was a lot of geeking out over birds and nature – and no shortage of bird-nerd jokes that only bird-nerds get. I had no idea how big the community of Black nature enthusiasts really is. Initially I felt guilty about that – but then I listened to an interview with Corina Newsome, where she explained how bowled over how even she was by this. She said that on the first day of Black Birders Week, she woke up and searched the event’s hashtag on Twitter, and was so stunned by the volume of posts that she just laid back on her bed and cried because she had “never seen that many black people…doing the thing that I love doing…”

I also saw so many connections being made. That was the best part really. During the week, and in week that followed, via the #becauseofblackbirdersweek hashtag, so many people shared how they felt less alone, and more supported because of the event. My favorite was a post where a woman discovered she wasn’t the only Black hijabi birder. Another was a post where someone wrote that ” in 40 years of birding, I never thought I would see the day when I wasn’t the only black birder I knew.”


Eastern Meadowlark 06.10.2020 Westport, MA

Even though Black Birders Week offered me (and so many others) some joy and hope in a tough two weeks, I still needed a mental escape from all the bad news. So in mid-June I went birding again. I drove 40 minutes – my longest drive since the pandemic hit us – to a seaside Audubon preserve, where I watched Bobolinks, Common Terns and Willets. The air smelled of ocean and beach roses. But the real treat was watching an Eastern Meadowlark sing and fly. It was such a thrill, and was just the break I needed.

But on my drive home that night, I thought of what I’d read and heard over and overagain, from all the Black birders, scientist and nature lovers, during the week – that they don’t get a break from thinking about racism, even when – and sometimes especially when – they are out in nature.

I don’t think I’ll ever go birding again without thinking of their stories, or feeling an ache in my heart. But I will use those thoughts, and that ache, as motivation to listen, to pay closer attention, and to help fight against racism alongside my fellow birders.



These are 2 video sessions that were part of Black Birders Week:




Tons GREAT of resources and opportunities to learn and listen here:

Color Of Change is the nation’s largest online racial justice organization:

#BlackAFinSTEM Linktree:

American Birding Association Podcast with two of the organizers, Corina Newsome & Tykee James


2019 Recap: Two Lists, One Trophy

In 2019, I participated in two, year-long bird-listing challenges. One was to see as many species in a 5 mile radius from my home address, and the other was to see 200 species in my home county of Newport, in Rhode Island.

My 5MR and County Borders

The 5 Mile Radius challenge I took part in (aka 5MR) was organized by Oregon birder and blogger, Jen Sanford. Last January, she inspired a bunch of birders around the USA (and a few internationally) to bird closer to home, and, therefore, drive less. And that’s exactly what I did. Of the 406 checklists I submitted to eBird in 2019, 335 of those were in my 5MR, and I logged 189 species. I barely drove, which gave me more time to bird. And while I didn’t win any monthly or yearly challenges (the competition was stiff!), I had a lot of fun following everyone else’s progress.

The challenge to see 200 species in Newport County 200 was strictly a personal one. The idea for it was put in my head sometime in May, by a fellow birder. We were talking about my 5MR progress, and how I’d just reached the 150 species mark, when he said something like “At the rate you’re going, you could probably hit the 200 mark for your Newport county year list, if you keep at it.”

It seemed doable, what with only 50 species to go, and 7 months left.

But when I went home that day and really looked at what it would take, I wondered if it was even possible. The birding would soon slow, with spring migration coming to an end. And sure, there was the fall migration to look forward to, but it would be most of the same birds I’d just ticked off on their journey north. So I had summer shorebirds, the occasional rarity, and some early winter waterfowl left to work with. And a 9-5 job to work around.

In short, the reality was this: the remaining 50 species would be tougher to get than the first 150, even with 7 months left in the year.

I also realized that only a handful of people before me had reached the 200 year mark (on eBird anyhow) in Newport County. As a relative newbie, these things should have made me reconsider, but they only galvanized my desire to get to 200.

Throughout the year, I was often asked by the non-birders in my life if there was a “prize” for winning “first place” in these “contests.” When I said no, and explained that these listing challenges were usually just friendly competitions based on the honor system and some agreed upon birding and listing ethics, I got a few of perplexed reactions.

This explanation did not satisfy my friend Brian.

Towards the end of the year, he texted me a few times to find out what my “stats” were. I honestly thought he was ribbing me. But he wasn’t. You know how I know this?

Oh Brian.

HE HAD A TROPHY MADE FOR ME because he couldn’t bear the thought of me not having something to commemorate my achievement.

In the end, of all my friends who were rooting for me, Brian was my biggest cheerleader, even if he didn’t understand what the heck a 5MR or a “county year list” was.

I will forever treasure that trophy, but really, I took on these challenges mostly because I wanted to learn more about birds. Prior to 2019, if I saw a bird that was really tough to ID, I would give up. ID’ing birds correctly, it turns out, isn’t easy.

But in 2019, with so much at stake, I knew it would force me to really hone my ID skills, because I would need to count as many species as possible. So I would bird by day, and study by night – pouring over the photos I’d taken, and often falling asleep with field guides scattered on the bed.

Each night I learned a little more, like why some species can look so different, season to season, year to year. (Gulls, man.) Or about the minor details that might set two different species apart. (Sparrows, man.) I immersed myself in it all, and was stunned by how much I’d missed before. And so charmed by all the little details.

I also did these challenges because I knew that focusing intently on something I love would help me survive the year. It was a turbulent one, starting with a few storms that combined into a large front that knocked out the lights, and left me feeling unmoored. Metaphor-free translation: intense work stress paired with the hormonal shifts of menopause resulted in an episodic depression that lasted for the bulk of the year.

Birding kept me anchored in 2019 though, even on my worst days. And since I’m back to the metaphors: my non-birding, trophy-buying friends were my life raft, and I owe them big time for keeping me afloat. One month out from 2020, and the lights are coming back on, and I’m ready for another year of birds.

Snowy Owl | January
Bald Eagle | January
Tree Swallow |April 2019
Summer Tanager | May
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Ovenbird | June
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Piping Plover (Juvenile)| July
Red-tailed Hawk | September
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Tree Sparrow | November
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Pink Footed Goose (#200!)| December

Year Totals
eBird Checklists 406
Species 230

5MR 2019 Totals
eBird Checklists 335
Species 189

Newport County 2019 Totals
eBird Checklists 370
Species 200

All photos are mine. Cover photo is a Barred Owl, from January 2019.

My Great Grandfather, the Deputy Bird Commissioner

For my father Victor, who passed away on May 31, 2000. It seems to me he was very much like his grandfather, interested in and adept at so many things. He is missed still.

Vittorio Ruggeri

Until recently, I thought I was unique in my family for my interest in birds. Of my 7 siblings, not one of them influenced me in this area. Nor did my parents. And while we kids spent plenty of time outdoors – mostly swimming and fishing at the Elm Street Pier, which was about 200 yards from our house – we were no nature nerds. There were no field guides to anything lying around.

As it turns out though, my paternal great grandfather, Vittorio Ruggeri, held the title of Deputy Bird Commissioner of Newport County in the early 1900’s. I learned this by way of an email my mother sent me in September of last year. I was on vacation when she sent it, distracted and doing birdy things (of course), so other than an “Oh cool!” moment, I promptly forgot about it.

But back in January, when 2018 was declared the Year of the Bird, I remembered. Year of the Bird is a collaborative campaign by the National Audubon Society, National Geographic, BirdLife International, and the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. It’s purpose is to celebrate birds and the 100th anniversary of the Migratory Bird Treat Act. 

When this Year of the Bird thing began, I intended to write more about birds, and the history of the MBTA, and of Vittorio’s time as Deputy Bird Commissioner. But in addition to lacking confidence – I am a competent birder, but no expert – I’ve also never been a good student of history. In fact, the only class I ever failed was a US history class. It was badly taught, with no life breathed into it. It was presented as a chronology of events that I felt no connection to it.

But my curiosity about my bisnonno, and his direct connection this particular history, held my attention, and compelled me to dig.

A quick Google search helped me find his name in the State of Rhode Island’s Treasurer’s Reports from three years, 1912-1914. He may have done this in other years, but I was unable to find more reports from other periods.


From the 1912 Report, October wages

Prior to 1918 (when the MBTA became federal law), it was up to individual states to regulate the hunting of migratory birds. For Rhode Island, this lead to the creation of the Commisioners of Birds by the General Assembly in 1899. The Commissioners were a group of specially trained game wardens, one for each of the 5 counties in the state. An article on the RI DEM website states that:

Their duties were to enforce the laws relating to birds, game, and other animals. In the past, town officials inadequately enforced these laws. This newly established commission appointed paid deputies who worked on a part time basis, as well as unpaid deputies, who received money for their services by collecting one-half the fines after convictions.

But while state level efforts like these helped, they weren’t enough to repair the damage done to North American bird populations. By the early 1900’s, a century of unregulated hunting by humans had taken a devastating toll on our birds. Great Auks, Labrador Ducks, Passenger Pigeons, Carolina Parakeets, and Heath Hens were hunted to extinction. And we came close to losing many others to the “plume trade,” which supplied feathers to milliners in New York and London.

Feathered hats were all the rage in the late 1800’s, until a boycott – started by two influential Boston socialites – helped bring national attention to the issue. The boycott became a nationwide movement when these two women, Harriet Lawrence Hemenway and Minna B. Hall, started the first chapter of what would eventually be know as the National Audubon Society.

Other states followed suit with their own organizations. The mounting pressure of public campaigns by these groups led to stricter hunting laws at the state level. But these state laws, like the ones my great grandfather helped enforce, simply weren’t enough to repair a century of damage, and so the development of federal legislation went underway.

First, there was the Lacey Act of 1900, which was the first federal law ever written to protect wildlife. When this wasn’t enough, the Weeks-McLean Act of 1913 was passed with stricter regulations, but was soon found to be unconstitutional by two district courts. Despite their failings, both of these acts were important precursors to The Migratory Bird Treaty Act of 1918, which has held firmly (mostly) in place for 100 years.


When it comes to knowing any specifics about Vittorio’s work as a Deputy Bird Commissioner, I have very little to go on. He died in 1950, 23 years before I was born. My own father, Victor, passed away in 2000, and his only remaining sibling (he had 6 sisters and 3 brothers) died last June. If there is anyone else left alive with any memories of Vittorio, I would be very surprised.

But the State of RI Annual Report of the Commissioners of Birds from 1913 details what their duties were. It states that commissioners made arrests, gave fines, and seized illegally poached game. He must have done some, or maybe all of these things, in the years he gave to this position. The report also reveals that the job had its share of drama and excitement:


img_0392Most of what we know about my bisnonno is in his obituary. He was a renaissance man. In addition to his work protecting birds, he was also a metal-smith, and an expert locksmith, and was known as the “locksmith for The Avenue” (Bellevue) here in Newport. He was often called on by the local police to assist in burglary investigations. He was also an opera singer who sang in the Naples Opera House, before emigrating from Italy to the US, in 1900. He played the drums. And he was a keeper at the Elm Street Pier – the same pier where my siblings and I spent our summers fishing and swimming, decades after he passed away.

I wish I knew what it meant to him to be a Deputy Bird Commissioner. I wonder if he img_0388loved birds and nature, the way I do. I realize that it may have just been a way to make an extra dollar in the gig economy of earlier times. I am not one to romanticize these things. Still, I can’t help but wonder if the years he spent watching after birds imprinted somewhere on his DNA, and ended up in mine.

Regardless of his motivations, seeing his name in those reports makes me proud. It gives context and texture and a personal connection to the history of a law that has, for a hundred years now, protected the birds that I love so dearly.

More birds, less pain,


Connecticut River Tree Swallows

Originally written in 2017 for my other blog, Eat Thru the Pain.

Early Monday evening I boarded the River Quest, a 64’ catamaran at Eagles Landing in East Haddam, CT. The purpose of the cruise was to watch a large flock of Tree Swallows descend onto Goose Island at sunset, where they roost overnight. For a few weeks every late summer and into early fall, the swallows gather here, near the mouth of the Connecticut River, as they ready for their migration south.

This behavior is known as “staging.” The swallows choose this particular spot for a variety of reasons, such as the ample food source of flying insects (they dine on the wing), which they load up on before their long flight. Another reason is for the protection from predation that Goose Island provides. It is dense with Phragmites, an invasive marsh reed, making it nearly impossible for predators to approach from anywhere but above.

It is not completely understood why they join forces in these massive communal roosts, but it is likely for the safety in numbers. And the numbers are impressive. Estimates vary. They are difficult to count. But it is generally agreed that between 250,000 and 500,000 gather here annually in flocks so dense that they regularly show up on radar.

After an hour’s boat ride down the river, where we saw Bald Eagles, Osprey, Great Blue Herons, Great Egrets and Belted Kingfishers, the captain positioned the vessel for the best view of Goose Island. The naturalists on board turned our attention to the incoming swallows.

In this half hour before sunset, the Tree Swallows started flying in from all directions, from their daytime feeding grounds. In the span of 15 minutes or so, dozens of birds turned into hundreds, then thousands. There were ribbons and clouds of them coming from every direction. We saw groups flying in low over the river, skimming the water for a final drink before joining the others in the sky above the island. Just before sunset, there were tens of thousands.

Through my binoculars, the view was almost more birds than sky, and I could see individual birds twirl and dip and dive. Still looking through the binoculars, I pulled the focus in closer. More birds. And when I pushed the point of focus out further? Still more birds. These adjustments revealed just how deep and massive the flock was.

At this point, the captain announced that the mass of birds was showing up on his radar, and invited us into the cabin to take a look. I made a quick dash there to see, then back to the deck, not wanting to miss the finale.

For a few more minutes after sunset, the cloud of birds twisted and shifted above the island. The flock would tighten, float up, then down, then swirl back up, loosen, and then do it all again in a new pattern each time. Aerial acrobatics.

Then, in groups, they began their descent.

It seemed that one bird would cue a group, then they’d form a vortex and funnel down. Then, when the funnel got lower in the sky, the birds would suddenly drop and dive straight down, careening towards the Phragmites at 60 miles per hour. It seemed impossible that they could land safely at that speed. But of course they could – they were built for this. Still, it was stunning.

It literally took my breath away. And with each group’s descent, I inhaled sharply again and again. I had tears in my eyes as I watched, and goosebumps all over. The man to my left kept whispering “Oh wow. Just wow.” despite the fact that he’d seen this 5 times before. I was glad I wasn’t the only one so deeply in awe of the sight.

Then, abruptly, it was over. We all stood there in silence for a moment. A moment later, I could feel a collective breath of release, followed by a quiet chorus of “wows” and “oh my gods”. I think some people clapped. I can’t remember. I just stood there smiling and silent, my chest bursting with excitement, overwhelmed by joy and wonder.

I’ve known for a long time that this is a bucket-list item for a lot of birders. What I didn’t know, was that Roger Tory Peterson, the world-renowned naturalist and artist, wrote about the Goose Island swallows in 1995, just a year before he passed away at the age of 87. He lived in Old Lyme, not far from the CT River. He wrote this:

“I have seen a million flamingos on the lakes of East Africa and as many seabirds on the cliffs of the Alaska Pribilofs, but for sheer drama, the tornadoes of Tree Swallows eclipsed any other avian spectacle I have ever seen.”

I’m so grateful to have seen it.

More Food Birds, Less Pain,



Dumb Luck and the Glaucous Gull

Glaucous Gull | March 22, 2019

I had some dumb luck a couple Fridays ago, when I pulled in to a parking spot at Seapowet Cove in Tiverton, and saw this RI rarity: an immature (1st year cycle) Glaucous Gull.

I didn’t have a solid plan to go birding that Friday after work. It was a vague notion in my tired brain. I was so burnt out from a week of  too much work and not enough sleep that all I wanted to do was go home to my couch after I finished my errands in Fall River, even if the drive did take me by at least a dozen easy spots for birding. But I wasn’t in the mood for the cold or the whipping wind, never mind the fact that I forgot my hat and gloves.

For weeks, I hadn’t been feeling the itch to bird – the one that I usually feel on a daily (ok, hourly) basis. It was a combination of the stress of work, coupled with some late winter (ok, early spring) blues. As I ran my errands, the opportunities to stop dwindled, as did the remaining hours of daylight, and on the return leg of my drive, I went grim with worry. What if this thing that I love so much, this thing that has become so life enriching, and so central to my happiness – what if it is simply no longer interesting to me? What if it’s gone?

Determined to prove my worries wrong, I took the next exit, the one for Tiverton, and drove straight to Seapowet.

I hadn’t even put the car in park yet, when I saw this big white gull among a group of Ring-billed and Herring Gulls. It took one second for my flagging interest to reignite. I turned off the car and began fumbling around for my binoculars and camera, saying “What the fork is THAT?! Don’t screw this up, Ruggeri. Get a picture, jackass, even if it’s a shitty one!”

Yeahhhh. I may need to work on the self talk thing.

Anyhow, I jumped out of the car, took a quick photo and posted it to “What’s this Bird?”, an American Birding Association Facebook group. And while I waited for input, I consulted my Sibley Guide and some apps on my phone, while keeping an eye on the bird. Everything checked out – it was indeed a Glaucous Gull.


As a kid, I inherited the disdain that coastal dwelling folks tend to have towards gulls. They were all just “seagulls”, and all they seemed to do was make a lot of noise and steal our sandwiches while we swam in the waves.

As a budding nature-nerd living in Utah in my 20’s, I gained a faint appreciation of them –  the California Gull is the state bird of Utah, after all. There’s even a statue dedicated to them, in Temple Square in Salt Lake City.

The story goes like this: Mormon settlers in the mid-1800’s survive their first winter in the Salt Lake Valley, only to have their spring crops threatened by swarms of shield-backed katydids (now commonly known as “Mormon Crickets”.) But then the large flocks of gulls arrive and save the day by eating the katydids. It’s known as “The Miracle of the Gulls,” and is an important piece of history, folklore and faith, for Utahns and Mormons alike.*

As birder in my 40’s, I have gained a deeper appreciation of gulls. They are tenacious and adaptable, curious and intelligent. They can drink both salt water and fresh water, and are opportunistic, omnivorous feeders. They are monogamous, and mate for life. They are highly social birds that form complex nesting colonies. They are doting, protective parents, and will even look after their neighbors offspring.

Even still, it wasn’t until very recently that I started to take a closer look, and to try my hand at ID-ing them. They are notoriously difficult in this regard, so much so that a lot of birders (myself included for many years) avoid them full tilt. When I started birding regularly a couple years ago, I had too much to learn, and gulls just didn’t seem all that sexy. I didn’t want to go messing around with their confusing multi-year plumage patterns. I wanted rarities, and pretty things.

But I bought a couple books this winter, and am slowly learning how to identify them. And that’s the thing about birding – I will never be bored, will never not have something to learn. There are 10,000 species of birds in this world, and nearly 1,000 in North America alone. And there’s no lack of gulls around here in RI. Even on a slow day, there are gulls, and a closer look at them reveals so much more than the sandwich stealing pests of my childhood.


Of course the Glaucous Gull wasn’t that difficult to ID, there were really only a few possibilities, but I am too new at this game to trust my own judgment. And I’d be foolish to not utilize the community of generous and way more knowledgeable and experienced birders out there.

It was dumb luck, finding that Glaucous Gull. For a birder, these moments are gold. For me, it was more, because it re-sparked my desire to get out more and see more. It was my own little “miracle of the gulls”, reminding me to have faith again in my love of birds and the natural world.

More birds,



*I enjoyed reading these different perspectives about the “Miracle of the Gulls”:

From the viewpoint of LDS historians, written by Trent Toone, for LDS Living: Was the Miracle of the Gulls Exaggerated?

From a more secular viewpoint (though I kinda resent his use of the term “trash bird” in the title) it’s still an interesting take, written by Ryan Cunningham for (Salt Lake) City Weekly:  A Seagull Story: Why a bug-eating trash bird makes Utah proud


One Lonely (5MR) Birder

Back in December, when Jen Sanford, Oregon birder and blogger of I Used to Hate Birds, proposed a year long 5 Mile Radius challenge, I didn’t hesitate to sign myself up. The idea of a 5MR was conceived by her a couple years ago, and the point is to try to see as many species of birds within a 5 mile radius from your home.

I didn’t know about Jen’s blog, or the 5MR concept, until last spring, when both were mentioned in a a blog I’d just discovered called – I kid you not – Bourbon, Bastards, and Birds. The downside to finding Bourbon, Bastards, and Birds was that I had to cross “Bourbon, Bastards, and Birds” off my list of possible memoir titles. The upside was that I found two great blogs on the same day.

In early January, Jen Sanford put together a USA participation map for the 2019 5MR challenge. I just about died when I saw the map legend. And then, just like that, I had a new possible memoir title: “One Lonely Birder”.

The (bird-blog) lords giveth and taketh. Amen.


IMG_4829Anyhow, 5MR birding is a variation on something called “patch birding”, which is just a term for birding your favorite, local spots on a regular basis.

Patch birding just sort of happens when you’re a birder, whether you mean to do so or not. In my case, I work a 9-5 job, but on my lunch break I can be at Easton Pond, or Sachuest Point NWR within minutes. Boom. These are two of my patches. And because I visit these places often, I’m gaining knowledge that I wouldn’t if I only hit them up once in a while.

The appeal? Birding more in your 5MR means less driving, which is a good thing for the environment. So there’s that. But less driving also leaves more time for birding. And more time in the same area means you gain a greater sense of intimacy with a place and its birds.

And even better, if you’re an eBird* user, you get to feel good about contributing data from places that might be otherwise be overlooked in favor of more exciting, more bird-y birding spots.

But truth be told, I signed up for a 5MR challenge because I needed the focus that it offered. 2018 was my first full year of birding on a regular basis, and it was nothing short of amazing. I saw a lot of new birds, and visited a lot of new places. I even broke down and got a camera, something I’d resisted for too long, for dumb reasons.

In 2018 I added 108 new species to my life list, which was just 139 at the start of the year. It was so thrilling for me to see that number reach 200, then 225, then 247 by the year’s end.

I saw some memorable things in 2018: a Great Blue Heron rookery, a butt-load of warblers, my nemesis bird (Black Skimmer), Turkey Vultures picking a seal carcass clean on Cape Cod. I drove all over New England, chasing whatever sparked my interest.

Turkey Vultures| Truro, MA | October 2018

I capped off the year with a Christmas Eve drive to Portland, ME to see a rare vagrant – a Great Black Hawk. Watching it dine on rat in a neighborhood tree was a Christmas wish come true.**

Great Black Hawk | Portland, ME | December 24, 2018

Oops, sorry for all the gore – here’s a pretty one!

Whimbrel | Westerly, RI | September 2018

But by December’s end, I was a little burnt out on all the chasing. And my energy was dipping, thanks to the Seasonal Affective Disorder I struggle with each winter. I knew what I needed to do: continue to get outside, keep moving, keep birding –  but I needed some motivation, and structure.

I liked how focused the 5MR Challenge seemed, and how unintimidating it sounded. No pressure, no long drives – just roll down the street and see what you see. Deciding to take on the challenge was kind of a relief – but I’m not going to lie, I was a little worried I’d suffer from birding FOMO, or get bored. But I didn’t.

My radius involves island hopping.

The monthly challenge for January was to bird under-birded Ebird hotspots. A point was gained each time you birded a spot that previously had no data in that particular week of the year. Out of a possible 49 points in my 5MR, I got 33. About 45 people participated. And guess what? I CAME IN THIRD.

Not that that’s what it was about for me, but it still felt pretty good. What felt even better was getting outside every single day. Those 33 points were 33 visits to places that I had either never been to before, or had, but only once or twice. Either way, they were places that I’d overlooked in the past, in favor of prettier, birdier places.

And what happened is that I noticed that there was far more going on in these places than I’d assumed. I didn’t expect to see a lot of what I saw. It slowed me down. Made me more aware. And I was never bored or disappointed.

Some of the highlights for me:

  • A pair of Northern Harriers hunting in the brush behind a supermarket.
  • A Bald Eagle at the reservoir near my house (not unheard of, but new for me!)
  • A group of Great Blue Herons hanging out all month at that same reservoir.
  • 3 lifers: Fox Sparrow, Horned Lark and an Orange-crowned Warbler.
  • The Eastern Bluebirds at Godena Farm – a cheerful sight in January.

But the best part was that I ended January with more energy than I entered it with. The numbness and exhaustion of December were a distant memory. And my enthusiasm for another great year of birding was renewed.

February birding was a bust, between work projects and some (very fun) birthday month travels. Though I did get a birthday lifer: a Canada Jay, near Flagstaff Lake in Maine.

But it’s March now, and I’m back at it!

More birds, less pain,


*eBird is a Citizen Science app designed by the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. It allows users to create and submit lists of the birds they observe on their outings. Cornell uses this data for research on bird migration and distribution, and those studies are often used for conservation efforts. This data is freely available to the public. In return, we birders get a free place to keep our lists, and a network of birders to communicate our findings with. Check it out here:

**This was only the 2nd record of a Great Black Hawk in the US. They usually live in Mexico and South America. He was thriving for a while in a local park, but got frostbite, was rescued but then sadly had to be euthanized. Avian Haven did an amazing job trying to save this beautiful bird. Equally amazing were the detailed and eloquent updates they gave during their efforts. 

You can read them on their Facebook page:

And this is a good article explaining the hows/whys the Great Black Hawk ended up in Maine:



Birding Thru Begins

Bobolink Page 331” by perpetualplum is licensed under CC BY 2.0

“…the best way out is always through.”                                                                                              -Robert Frost, A Servant to Servants

In June of 2017, in the wake of an especially painful breakup, I became a birder.

I didn’t mean to.

But a few days after the split, in a desperate attempt to feel normal, I woke up early on a Sunday, willed myself to stop crying, dusted off my binoculars, and joined a local, guided bird walk.

During the 2 hour walk, I politely conversed with the group, but I was feigning interest in the chit-chat, as well as the birds. Everything hurt. I couldn’t stop my thoughts from looping over the details of the breakup. And I kept plotting an early exit.

But I pushed through. And on the last leg of the walk, at the edge of a meadow, our guide pointed out a small songbird called a Bobolink. It was a male, decked out in his breeding plumage of black, white and yellow, and perched on a birdhouse in the middle of the field.

I knew what was next: the flight display that Bobolinks are famous for. The one where they fly out and back, rapidly flapping their wings, and singing an ecstatic, tinkling and rambling song. I had seen and heard my very first Bobolink just a week before, and it had thrilled me. But that was when I was happy and in love, and unaware that the end was only days away.

It felt impossible that I’d ever feel that happy about anything again. But I held the bird in view anyhow, and waited. And when the Bobolink lifted off, I snapped to attention, and I put all my effort into keeping the bird in my binocular’s field of view. I was suddenly rapt, and didn’t want to miss a moment.

For those few minutes, I was no longer aching. I even smiled a little. I was fully present, and happy to be sharing a moment of quiet awe with a group of strangers who knew nothing about my broken heart. 

It was only a short spell of reprieve, but a powerful one. I was in that early stage of grief where the pain felt pervasive, and permanent. The fact that I got a break from it amazed me even more than the Bobolink did. And it didn’t matter (or bother me) that it was only a few minutes. What mattered is that it was possible. I decided to hang my hopes on that, and to start birding more. 


Full disclosure: I’ve been into birds since my early 20’s. But until that day in June of 2017, any birding I had done was sporadic, casual, and unfocused. I owned a decent pair of binoculars and field guide, but I rarely got out. I barely knew a sparrow from a swallow.

But in the 18 months since that day with the Bobolink, I’ve learned so much. I’ve gone birding as often as possible. I’ve taken classes, read books, and gone to lectures. I’ve gone on guided walks, joined bird clubs and listservs and social media groups. My life list grew from 96 to 250 species. I’m fully hooked now. I am never bored, because there is so much more to learn. 

I wanted to start this blog last year, during the Year of the Bird, but I lacked confidence in both my writing and birding abilities, and kept losing my nerve. In all my mulling about it, I kept re-reading a passage from a David Gessner essay titled “Sick of Nature“, where he makes a plea for amateurism, sloppiness, and honesty in the genre of nature writing. These things I can do. So here goes. 

The bottom line is there is so much about birds and the natural world that I want to share with you.

And, really, why not have a birding blog? I mean, I’ve kept a personal blog about nothing for 7 years, and some of you people actually like it. This blog’s title – Birding Thru – pays homage to that other blog, Eat Thru the Pain. Granted, the content of Eat Thru the Pain hardly deserves the honor, but keeping that blog helped me get through some difficult times. It kept me writing, and connected, and laughing with the people I love. I left the word “pain” out of this blog’s title though, because there is mercifully much less of it in my life these days.

At the very least, I hope to entertain. Best case scenario is that I somehow manage pique your interest in the birds I love so dearly. They are worthy of the attention.

More birds, less pain,


The drawing of the Bobolink is originally from “The Home and School Reference Work, Volume I” by The Home and School Education Society, H. M. Dixon, President and Managing Editor. It was published by The Home and School Education Society in 1917.